sometime i really feel like beating myself up and down.
what else can i say? congratulations for having two less essays to write? or good luck for the rest seven schools? oh, how about this one: finally you help some pple prove that you are good at nothing but being blur and useless.

it was not surprising to me that i didn't cry. ( i don't normally cry over my own mistakes, more often i cry for others' mistakes that hurt me) maybe i was too shocked to cry.

apologies to those who helped me in this
apologies to dad and mom, who still dont know about this
apologies to myself, for letting you down again

sorry.

trust me, everything will be fine.